My dad wouldn't shut up during dinner. He kept telling lik embarrasing stories and shit. Makes me so mad. He won't stop drinking either. grrrrr. I swear the day he stops having 3-4 drinks of hard liquor a night is a day pigs fly.
I just hope he can control himself tonight. I really don't want to fend him off me again.
I think me binging and purging has like taken over cutting for me. I can't remember the last time i ate without puking. I havn't cut since i have started purging again. It's weird. I can't explain it. It's like when i puke i don't feel the need to cut. Which reminds me its time to purge again. Parents just went out for a cigg. Lataz.
Sometimes i think i need help, other times, i just dont care. I mean its my body my desicion right. My therapist is throwing all these facts at me that i just can't intake. I don't care about facts. I've heard enough facts. i just want answers. But for answers i guess i gotta figure out the questions huh?